OK, So i have to write about me as a writer this week. I like the Endorsement groups alot. I am super pumped for Monday. I think the Endorsement groups are a very good idea, and they can help us in making sure that everything in our paper is up to Stephanie's standard before we turn it in. This will help me out alot, probably mainly because i like when other people (it also helps alot that their in my same class and have the same knowledge of the subject as i do) to re read my paper and tell me their opinion. I am not good with grammar, so I know the group that deals with punctuation and spelling can really help me also. also the group that checks if my works cited is correct can help me also. I am not always the best with works cited. I am quite nervous about this first paper,but I know the endorsement groups will help me succeed. I am doing my paper on which Agent of Socialization is the most influential in my life. I think not being allowed to write about an over rated topic is a very good idea. That means I can capture the attention of my audience without them thinking its boring.

ok so ive just wondered randomly if we were allowed 2 post other stuff besides our required posts?

Men that suck & Lesbianism

I’m very enraged with men. I hate how they never understand how women feel. You would think that men could read and understand women’s actions to determine their feelings. Women aren’t going to be like “Hey, this is what I want!!! Get it for me!!”. We give you subtle hints, like hey that’s cute, or, this shirt would be so hot on me! But guess what, guys never seem to understand anything women want. Sex isn’t the only thing on our minds like it is yours! But sometimes I wonder if sex is really the only thing on guys minds or if they actually care about women’s feelings?! Ok, I obviously haven’t dated or talked to every guy in the world, but every guy I do talk to or date or whatever is usually the same. Their nice at first, and the more you get to know them they become a dick! I hate it when guys try to play mind games with you. For example, just because a woman sleeps with you more then three times doesn’t mean your dating, it just means she likes your sex! Some guys get it twisted! But then there are other guys that don’t care how many times you have sex, they would never want to date you! So I get so confused! Why cant guys just be friends with women! I have never once been friends with a guy who hasn’t tried to get with me! And its so annoying. I’m not trying to dogg guys, but sometimes I wonder if I should be a lesbian! Haha, I am so just kidding, but also partly serious. I mean think about it, if you’re a woman and you are dating a woman, you know just what she wants, needs and feels. And women are so more sensitive. Like, if I had a boyfriend and I got into a fight with him, he would pretend like nothing happened. I don’t understand men. I don’t think I ever will. I wish someone could sit down with me and explain truly what is in the mind of men. But I do know what’s in the mind of women, so wouldn’t it make more scene to be with a women? Ok ladies, I am not trying to freak you out and make you think I am checking you out because I am not. Lol. But seriously I don’t think its wrong for women to be gay. Out of all the lesbians and bisexual women I know, most of them are that way because guys are assholes, so they moved to women. And I really don’t want to be a lesbian, but I just wish guys would be able to feel women out more MENTALLY then physically, and I wish I understood why some guys will fall in love with you, but some guys just want to have sex, and why some guys are mushy gushy romantic (even though I’ve never met one) and most guys are pricks. I’m not trying to offend any of the guys in the class, because probably haven’t said a single word to any one of you, therefore I am not judging you. But, I’m sure some of you fall into the list above, and if not… god bless you!!

Alison as a Writer

How I view myself as a writer isn’t exactly the best. I don’t believe I am a good writer and I am very scared to do my first paper. I’m not sure what I want to do it on, but probably an issue that not many people have heard of. I don’t want to do an issue everyone already knows about, because in class Stephanie said that we shouldn’t do that. I agree with her because, how would you truly capture the attention of your audience, even if you had a good paper, if they heard the same shit your writing over and over again. When I write my paper, I want my audience to be very curious to what I have to say. I don’t want to capture their attention in the first part of my paper, but then have them think in the middle of the paper that its boring and they want to quit reading it. I truly enjoy writing, but not so much in the form of a paper. I’m very self conscious as to how it might turn out. I don’t want to work as hard as I can, but then get a bad grade, and have everyone think my paper sucks. I would rather write for pleasure. Like stuff for me, like poetry. I like the English class I am in, because everyone seems pretty nice. Its a lot more comforting to be able to feel like when I have to write a paper, that I can write it without receiving criticism from others. Not like I would get my feelings hurt, but you know. So that’s how I feel about writing and I am quite nervous for my first paper.

BORED TO DEATH.

Okay, so I don’t really know what to write my blog about this time so here it goes. Often times I wonder if I am the only bored to death person in Peoria?! Like seriously, there is nothing good to do. I’ve gone to the mall one hundred million times and quite frankly I am one hundred percent completely sick of it! I hate movies because you can’t talk during them, so what’s the point of going. I can watch movies at my house! Sure, you can go out to eat… but that isn’t doing something either! So my friend is like, hey lets go bowling. Okay, I think. So we go bowling, and it’s expensive as hell, and the food sucks. Besides, no one cool was there only a bunch of families with annoying little kids. In play was awesome in my opinion, but some idiot closed it down. Sure, it might have been kind of kiddish, but it was like a giant Chuck E Cheese but for older people! And there was a bar upstairs in it! There is no place where people my age can go hang out, play video games or study or anything. I would love to have a place where you could go have a beer, study English, write this blog, and then play pool when I was done! Sure there are little nooks and crannies tucked away in ICC to study, but you can’t drink, or hang out, or listen to awesome music. I just wish there was a cool place I could go with my friends, hang out, not have to spend lots of money, and have fun. Can anyone think of anywhere?

Ali as a Writer

I have taken two other ENGL classes at Illinois Central College before, ENGL 110 and ENG 105 (i believe). This one i am taking currently seems to be the most fun, i suppose if English is fun. Pertaining to writing, I in vision my self as decent. It mainly depends on what I'm writing. If I'm writing a paper I'm required to write, and i have no say in the topic, then i would probably get a C as a grade. I would most likely have problems with the flow of the paper. I wouldn't space out things like they should be, i would have lots of problems with punctuation and grammar, and i wouldn't have the best summary at the end of each paragraph. The structure wouldn't be as good as it should be. But when i am writing about something that interests me and i get to pick the topic, my paper sounds more 'real.' I actually feel like i can speak my mind about it. And when i do my best writing is when i can write how ever i want to. For example, i like to write poetry. I have written poetry since i was in eighth grade. It has always been a favorite thing for me to do pertaining to writing. OK so I'm going to put on of the poems Ive written on here for you to read. (Stephanie) I'm sure you will think its way better writing then what i do in class but who knows you might think all the writing sucks. Lol. But just to warn you this poem isn't meant to freak you out i wrote it when i was like fifteen years old and i was very depressed and confused at that time in my life. So don't freak out, but i think its a good poem and represents what i was going through at the time. And if u like it Stephanie i have lots more of poems if your interested in reading them or giving me extra credit for them just kidding because i know you wouldn't give me extra credit.

Condescending

The way the slice
of the knife
feels against my arms tonight
is enough to make me go insane
to make all the blood drain
from my empty veins
my whole body shivers and then goes numb
and its my true feelings that i shun
when the darkness doesn't recover into light
that means its time to end tonight
time to cut with all my might
what happens if i don't wake from my sleep
what happens if i cut too deep
what happens if death is what i choose to keep
would you even bother to cry
would you even care why
and if you had known would you even had tried
to keep me from killing my self just right now
to stop me from wondering why me, and how
to keep me from condescending and taking this vow